Thank you all for the sweet congratulations about our pregnancy. It means a lot to me know that there are wonderful people out there supporting and loving me. Thank you.
One of my friends mentioned that she thought that being pregnant with a second baby wouldn't be as exciting as the first (she has one baby right now). I wondered about this too. But I think that I am enjoying this pregnancy more than I did my first, even though I've been more sick. This time around I feel really strong and capable. With my first pregnancy there were a lot of unknowns-- was what I feeling normal ? was the baby okay? would I know if I was in labor? what would labor be like? would I be able to cope with a normal, natural birth? would I be good a mother? But now that I've been through all of it I know I can do it and that it isn't a scary or miserable experience. I think I've learned to trust my body more and to just relax, because things will work out however they are suppose to. I don't feel anxiety about being pregnant or giving birth again-- I haven't even opened up a pregnancy "what is suppose to be happening to me" book yet! It is kind of nice. I am just looking forward to feeling this baby get bigger and stronger (I can already feel little kicks!), to seeing myself grow more lusciously and deliciously huge, to laboring and bringing this baby to the world, and finally getting to meet whoever it is that is living inside of me! Sure there are still a lot of unknowns-- because every baby and every pregnancy is different-- but my last pregnancy and labor taught me a great, life changing lesson that gives me confidence. I learned that I am much stronger and braver that I ever thought I was, that I have an AMAZING body, and that I can do hard things with the help of the Lord and those who love me-- on the earth and above it. This knowledge has changed me permanently, as I'm sure it does most women who bring children into the world, and it fills me peace and joy where once there was anxiety and fear. So, I'm excited. Oh-- and we only have a month left till we get our ultrasound and find out if it is a boy or a girl! I am so excited, it will be nice to be able to know a little bit more about this tiny person inside of me!
Oh, and as a COMPLETELY unrelated side note-- In sacrament meeting on Sunday Asher was being SO good and we had almost made it through all of the meeting without having to be taken outside. He was standing on the pew being entertained by the family of girls two rows back and the young woman sitting next to him. For just a second both the young woman and I turned our heads back to the speaker and BAM! Asher decided in the instant to dive HEAD FIRST over the pew. Luckily his only injury was a bloody nose. But really! Hopefully he has learned his lesson and will not try to hurdle any more pews.
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With our unassisted pregnancy the first time it was relaxing, but I still worried and I was not immune to other's worries, either.
Whenever I'm pregnant again, I look forward to the BTDT (mostly) worry-free aspect of a second pregnancy.
Happy pregnancy vibes to you!
Congrats Heather! I'm glad the pregnancy is going well. And it's kind of funny to hear about Asher. It's a good thing that little kids recover so easily from those types of escapades. Anyway, I think the floating baby in the sidebar is a little creepy...
It is nice to be just as excited. For me, I also sometimes wonder how I'll love 2 little people as much as I love my baby. I can I fit that much love in my heart? I know I will, but it's hard to fathom.
I wish I wasn't anxious. It always takes forever for me to show, and I'm not very sensitve to kicks and such, so I always worry I'm doing something wrong. Plus, I REALLY want to have a natural childbirth this time, and since I got an epi at 3 cm last time, I'm TERRIFIED of childbirth. Well, not terrified, but scared I won't be able to do it and will just give up. That's my biggest anxiety, but we're getting ready and I'm already prepping mentally. I just hope it goes faster than Alana's birth!!
I think being pregnant with the second one is even MORE exciting than the first. The first one wasn't "real" to me. I remember when I went in for the ultrasound that first time I was like "Holy cow! There really is a baby in there!" This time I can really enjoy knowing that there is a sweet little boy growing in me who will one day cuddle with me, give me kisses, etc...
Congrats! That is so exciting that you are expecting again. Did you do a home birth with your first? I a guessing you are planning to with your next one. I definately agree that in Utah it seems like either there are too many babies born to care or it is just commonly accepted that everyone should have a hospital medicated birth. I wish there would have been someone else there to tell my doctor that a c-section was not my only option. It is sad that I ended up having surgery because a doctor wasn't willing to turn my baby and let me try natural. I hope I can find a better doctor next time. I don't know if any midwife in Utah will accept a patient hoping for a VBAC. We will see when the time comes. That will be a while though.
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