Life Just Isn't Fair

I don't really know what to say in this post, but I just need to write something down-- blog therapy or something like that. On Monday I attended the funeral of a woman in our church who passed away from cancer and then on Wednesday I attended the funeral of one of my best friends husbands who died in a motorcycle accident last week. Needless to say it has been an emotionally draining week for me.

While both funerals were sad because both people were WAY too young to die and were WAY too full of life, I have been having a really hard time dealing with my friend's husband dying so suddenly. She and her husband were high school sweethearts (they started dating our junior year) and they had only been married for five years. He left her with two little boys under the age of 4 and she is pregnant with their third child. I just doesn't seem fair that he was taken from her when she needs him SO much! My heart just aches and aches for her and I feel so bad that my life is going on normally while EVERYTHING has changed for her. It seems like this much grief and sorrow should just make the whole world stop, but it doesn't.

I'm a grown up enough of a girl to realized that life just isn't fair and that sometimes God allows bad things to happen to good people. but I am having a hard time seeing what it is that we are suppose to learn from a tragedy like this. Perhaps... that life is fragile, that life is way too short, that we need to be grateful for every moment we are granted, that we need to tell and show people we love them EVERY chance we get, that families are eternal, that the soul continues on after this life, that angels are with us always...

I think it has been especially hard for me, being so filled with a new life inside of me, to face so much death. And while I realize that death is not to be feared because life is eternal and that we will get to see our loved ones again someday, it is still hard to know that we don't have control and that sometimes things just aren't fair. I trust God and I trust his ways, but sometimes it is just downright HARD to have faith and find peace. Yet I do know that through Christ all sorrows can be healed and that true and lasting peace can be found.. and I believe in miracles. So if you happen to know this dear friend that I am talking about (and even if you don't) keep her in your prayers or in your heart because I know that the miracle of healing CAN come for her, for her family, and for everyone who loves them. It is just hard that sometimes the best people are the ones who have to suffer.